My small boy’s
Father
Flew into town for the
Boy’s spring break.
The dad and his boy,
They hadn’t seen each other since
July.
It’s our life,
Shared and separate:
One of us,
His father,
Who lives in Finland,
Or me,
Is always living through
Days and weeks and months of
Our son’s absence:
Walking past a
Quiet,
Shadowy
Bedroom,
Toys neatly in their boxes,
Bed smooth with laundered sheets;
Twisting open the blinds to
Let light in,
And then closing them again at the
End of one more day
Ticked off the calendar.
Incredibly,
A season will pass,
Or even two:
A melting or a shedding of leaves,
Moons.
And then:
The airport.
On Wednesday,
I had taken off work early and
Arranged to pick the boy up from school
When we learned the plane would be late.
So we scurried around town a bit,
Holding hands to run across streets and
Jump over puddles,
And arrived at the airport at
10 p.m.
Late for a small boy —
And for me.
Strung out on
Anticipation,
Time-killing errands and
Fluorescent lighting,
We waited,
Watching travelers descend an escalator behind the
Sliding glass doors of the airport’s
Secure zone.
Victor scampering around on feet and hands like a monkey,
His dad,
To be sure,
Striding down the wide, carpeted
Terminal corridors toward us.
Not allowing himself to jog —
After months of disciplined pacing,
You can’t lose your rhythm on the
Last leg of the journey.
And then,
There he was:
that actually made me cry